[ inside the cell ]

the things i want to have. the person i want to be. the ideas i wish everyone could hear. the passages i would really want to end. the accidents that have been happening. the predictions that's beyond reality. i want to be free, free of judgment, free of ridicule. i want to be myself, be true and nothing more. i want to be with you, hold you in my arm until i die. i want to die smiling, so the world will know how happy my life had been.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

tigidig ya...

haha, sa puerta de isabel andameng kalokohang naiisip ng mga bakla wakhak, c akibitch kc eh...
pewo in fernez ansaya nung adventure nmen knna, ang inet nga lang tlga...sayang akala ko may makikita akong waho0ho0 sayang tlga...sna mag2loi-2loi ang malas koh, konti na lang...konti na lang...hehe
sna matanggap ako, yep nagaapply ako, huhu sna matanggap aku.hai

iwishyouwerehere...jowk lang un nuh.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

becoz op u


I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry In the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you...

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

ineedyou.




see this ?
it was my x-ray result, boohoohoo
i love thee, and i have loved but thee...
bitterness has pushed me in typing these words down,
hell, i don't even know why i feel this way.
i have forgotten the rules, i don't care if loving is wrong, but i feel very happy, but that was a month ago.
i am a freak, i don't belong to a normal world, i don't even deserve these, i wasn't made to cry.
i hope someday, in this world full of lies, i'd bump into you and smile, as i stare at the same face i have loved.
i am different, that's why i'm perfect ?
filibustero.online.omg

desperate once again.

i thought i met the one who'll love me for me, i thought it was the right time to fall, but i was wrong all along...a promise was made that never will my heart be broken again, but now i'm almost kissing the floor trying my best not to show the fears andthe tears that i have shed for the wrong person...
nah, i don't regret anything...i know what i did and loving wasn't just something for me, not yet...

filibustero.online.omg

Saturday, October 06, 2007

almost.

wah, start na ulet ng sem...oh no..oh no..i enjoyed my break though, pero bro, bitin ! bitin ang break ! hai., i need another week or two, hai.

bro, i'm in love, pero parang di pa rin ako ready eh.

at the beginning.




i'm not sure where i got the tears that's streaming down my cheeks, i'm not even sure who's causing all my sufferings. i never asked for anything, all i wanted was someone who understands me, the one who knows how to treat me right.


i'm not a girl not yet a woman, and so i do not deserve all the pain that makes me oh so weak. i hate everything that reminds me of you, don't blame me if i haven't moved on yet, let me remind you that i have loved because of shallow reasons, but everytime i see you happy in the arms of another, i can't help but cry.




i am weak., i am insensitive., but i don't care !


hell with you all.