the deathly hallows.spoiler bro

i was so excited to read the last book on Harry Potter by JK Rowling,
and i was actually waiting for a very tragic ending, but JK was so great that, yeah some died, but still the whole things wasn't tragic at all.
Voldemort died, yeah too bad for a crap like him, he met his death while laughing at the same boy who gave him the diappoinments of his life.
Harry on the other hand is alive til the end of the book, he even married Ginny Weasley and have three kids, - James, Albus Severus and Lily, haha some reincarnation i bet.
Ron and Hermione also ended up together, with Hugo and Rose as their lovely kids, ow, i think they kissed several times in the book, haha she did became so sweet towards him.
Severus Snape is a good man, and very brave. He was Dumbedore's spy to you-know-who all along, tsk tsk such bravery for a guy like him and he even fell in love with Lily Potter and well, also learned to love Harry but at the end he died as well.
Fred Weasley died, and Tonks and Mad eye and Lupin and Bellatrix and many more !
JK is so good, i really wish i had a brain like hers, but on second thought ? i have some great ideas like her, i just don't have time..haha

loka.

i am going to die. maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. i hate when i feel alone and lonely, and the only culprit i know is the love, forbidden love. haiz anu ba un, nakakainis na ang buhai, kc naman kung sino pa yung hindi dapat mahalin eh yun pa ang nagpapakita ng kabaitan saken, kaya ayun ! minamahal ko na siya. argh !

i love thee, i love but thee. help me forget this, help me die in a fast but brutal way.

added pressure.

again i'm pressured to do a lot of things, plus i have to manage my time, well that's according to klinkie, yah know, the man, the perfect man.haizi really need a break, from all of this !i'm still thinking of my "special somebody", the wrong love i have been talking about. -sigh- i need someone to talk to, but what shall say ? that i'm in love with a wrong person, and that i'm stupid to expect something from a very impossible person. rrggghhhi hate my love life ! its a total mess and still i cry at night coz everytime i close my eyes its only that somebody that pops into my mind. now blame me for my stupidity.blame me.

added pressure.

again i'm pressured to do a lot of things, plus i have to manage my time, well that's according to klinkie, yah know, the man, the perfect man.haiz
i really need a break, from all of this !
i'm still thinking of my "special somebody", the wrong love i have been talking about. -sigh- i need someone to talk to, but what shall say ? that i'm in love with a wrong person, and that i'm stupid to expect something from a very impossible person. rrggghhh
i hate my love life ! its a total mess and still i cry at night coz everytime i close my eyes its only that somebody that pops into my mind. now blame me for my stupidity.blame me.

one stupid gal.

...how can something so wrong, feel so right all along...

i don't intend to sing the whole song in this post., well at some point i simply love this certain part..coz it speaks of the feeling i have inside, i am in love, i'm crazy in love with someone i should not love ! 'the one' is somebody i respect, someone dear to me that i just can't let anyone know how i feel for that somebody, now do you think its a problem ? well, that's not all, i have these illusionsm, of course it's out of despair. but i sometimes feel the urge to kiss, hug and be with this somebody, but i can't, i just can't, get the picture ?

i have loved before, but this love i feel right now is something different...far different from the flings i had. i need to be with this somebody, i can't live a normal life anymore, i want to shout to the world, all the things kept in my head. please hear me world.hear me.

whoa...

-----this is a masterpiece !-----

....my last post was last march, whoa, its been 3 months of no posts., i got wasted the other night, and when i said wasted meaning threw up while i was in the bus, and that was really gross men. it smelled so bad that i threw up again after 10 minutes, hahaha eeew. i really had a bad week last time, and all i can do was to forget all of it and go on with my life, and alcohol helped me a lot, honestly. but i had an allergy attack, it was itchy, i had to scratch my back every 10 seconds, i was like a dog. and now i promise not to drink ever again. hai til tomorrow, sana...ciao !