una siya, ano laban ko?

humupa na siguro ang emosyon ko, pero naiinis pa rin ako at nagseselos.


bakit ganun na lang siya kataranta pag siya yung pinaguusapan, pakiramdam ko siya talaga yung taong ninanais niya talagang makasama, at yun ang nagpapalungkot sa akin ngayon, mali ba ito? ang magalit ako at maiyak dahil ang kasintahan ko ay tuwang-tuwa nang makita niya ang babaeng pinapangarap niya? hindi naman siguro, kasi nasaktan talaga ako sa sinabi niya. sa mga sinabi niya.


parang bigla ako nawala sa buhay niya, parang nabura ako ng tuluyan, at hindi ko matanto kung gaano yun kasakit, kahit na sino siguro ganoon ang masasabi.


nabanggit ko na sa iyo ang tungkol doon di ba? sinabi ko na sa iyo na dalawa sila na talagang pinagseselosan ko at isa siya doon, dahil alam kong gustong-gusto mo siya at wala akong magawa tungkol doon. matagal na siya sa buhay mo, samantalang ako kailan lang, ano nga naman ang laban ko...

tae.

she's perfect and i'm the, "since-di-kayo-pwede-kaya-ako-na-lang" girl, great!


i feel jealous.
everything you posted on that page was really good, i enjoyed reading it, your girlfriend enjoyed reading it.
sometimes i just wanna ask if i really am special to you, especially when you're in front of someone else who's as beautiful as her.


i am jealous.
curse me if i'm wrong, but i do have the right to get jealous, because from the way i read your thoughts, you're so in love with her and don't you realize how painful that is for me? f***


im just pissed, after everything you typed in, what i wanna do is run away, or maybe shout at you, just this once:


can you please act as if you have a girlfriend.


i am hurting because of what i read, because as of now, i am actually thinking that you'd rather be with her than with me, and that is just...(sigh)


it's our 9th monthsary...happy monthsary! one of my happiest moment...yes, yes, thanks to you.

BLANK POST

i intended to publish this one wordless,
because talking is simply pointless.
guess i changed my mind.

i'd rather smile and hide everything,
i have faith, but to some, it means nothing.


out of nothingness, can there really be happiness?
surely im not dreaming, for i have been sleepless, for what, three nights?
they don't give a damn, so why would i?
i'm giddy. and i know a foolish act could make me lose you forever.


turn off the lights, i want to own you.
it's not just for a day, it has been eight straight months
i'm not bored nor falling out of this dream.
it had been long since i smiled for a long time, i hope its for the longest.


reality have knocked me down several times but i'll never be a sore loser,
i can't be, not until i found that glow that i know that had been there since my day of birth.
i was breathing then, but dark clouds covered the way
several soul came along to walk with me, but we all failed, one by one we fell.
you, so far, had gone the farthest, and i hope its for a lifetime.
50 years? maybe 70...i don't know but im hoping though.


i just want to stay like this, i'll pinch your cheeks and you'll kick me real hard.
no, not really like that.
i just want to lie in bed, in real old age and then looking at my either left or right, who cares.
i just want to see you smiling, holding my hand lying next to me saying the exact rhymes we're telling each other now.
it'll be a big effort for the both of us, but don't worry we'll make it through. i'm sure.


goodbye dark clouds, hello warming sunshine, it's a smiling sunny.
goodbye nightmares, hello hope, the only one left in pandora's box.


things will be alright, i have my head on your shoulders,
and i have you hands to keep you safe.
i have your word and you have mine,
let's just have faith and everything will be ok.


i'll find that perfect ring for your slim finger,
i'll find that diamond that matches that spark in your eyes.


thank you,
we still have a long stretch to go, shall we start?