'BLACKOUT'

It was supposed to be the liveliest part of town, merchants and dealers running from the four corners trying to earn enough for the day, but it seems to be an up-sided hell now. No lights, No electricity running, and is it the people's fault? Nah, it's the lady in the next building's fault.

Where's the POWERPUFF Girls when you need them?

SHE flew out of the country with her whole family, maybe to celebrate or to run away. It was a win by default if you ask me, she won the elections because no one dared to fight against her. No she's not powerful or famous, it's just that no one else dared to take responsibility for the town's debt that was acquired during her last term.

The 'Boy' had already paid the long list of debts as the old town folks said, but when it was her time to reign, the town's long list seemed to have doubled while her father's list was paid little by little. Maybe they thought they'd get away with it, that the people won't mind, but they missed one tiny loop hole: the consequences of their dishonesty will be suffered not by the culprits of their kind but by the victims who have done nothing wrong to them.

The people of Biñan are now suffering from heat and darkness, and still they turn a blind eye.

The public market that is popular for great bargains both on wholesale and retail, are now covered by dullness and sweat. Merchants are used to heat, but heat of the sun and not heat due to non-functioning electric fans and works uneasily in darkness because electricity is not available. The Market commission denies that they forgot to pay the bills, well in fact they were always on time in paying that with all the confidence they are now pointing their accusing fingers on the local government, that all the blames should be on them. They, We are now demanding for an explanation.

But where are you? Are you sick? Are you dying? or are you effing enjoying?

Deaf in both ears, blind on both eyes, incompetent in both hands and feet. All you did was to sum up all the money that this town has been earning, didn't you guys proclaimed us City? so developments should be fast, but as my eyes can see it we're progressing like a turtle who have forgotten how to walk.

Wake up, or it might be too late for all of us.

The rebirth of the Filibustero

Here I am finally typing my first blog for 2010 (yes, I can hear you saying ‘finally…’). I just had a very tiring day, though I didn’t do anything at all today still, I feel very exhausted. I can feel my eyelids slowly closing down, oooh I will be needing my pillow soon.

2009 was really fun; I had my internship, celebrated my graduation, found a job and celebrated our first year anniversary. I could say that it was fruitful and exciting, I tried smiling all year ‘round but maybe I was wrong to think that it was even possible, I won’t go blaming others for the tears I’ve shed, maybe it was all part of it.

I realized many things after the ‘incidents’ and I could say that I changed a lot, better and wiser me, but still keeping that little piece of me that just won’t stop loving her and that is what I want o let her know, maybe I’ve been acting weird lately but I want to assure her and everyone who’s concerned about her, about us, I still love Cielo and forever will I be inlove with her that no Woman or Man (hopefully not) can ever change.

I’m living a different life now, no school, no home works and definitely no exams, but I miss hanging out and fooling around. I promised myself that I’ll be enjoying my life and will be living to the fullest, and so far I’m doing great.

I’m looking forward to a more exciting year for me and for the rest of us, and hopefully more blogs for the year!

Cheers to 2009,

Cheers to 2010, and to the coming months.

i still hate the rain

....she was my life.....
....but she seems to be my death today.

















im out of words, i dont know how i should act and what should i feel.
im devastated.
im mad.
im stupid for thinking that forever is for real.

the blank stare

i was looking at the raindrops that were blurring my sight on the highway, it was a cloudy afternoon and i was wondering where does the sun go when its pouring heavily? thus, where was the smile that i usually wear when i'm on my way home?

she lied, and i don't know why.

i'm pissed not because i wasn't able to spend time with her, though i really miss her, but my point is i'm not mad because i didn't see her, i'm mad because you lied to me.

i'm so pissed off.
i hate myself.
P*****ina!

HOW-SHOULD-I-WRITE-THIS?

it's been three weeks of work...and i still can't get hold of where i am right now and what are the things that i should be doing. i left my heart somewhere in Kamuning, and its actually hard to work without it.

yeah my mom's right, i'll just get frustrated if i'll keep on thinking about that dream workplace of mine. But is hoping a bad thing? will it really just frustrate me and will not make me push harder to achieve it?

it's not yet the time, but what if i miss my every chance if i'll throw all this hope i have, can somebody just make me feel better? cause my hopes of a bright and successful career is slowly leaving my system.

-end-

can't think of anything more to say, my life is having one of its take-a-little-rest stage, i don't think its for good but it does make me feel miserable.

and i guess nothing can cure me, at least for now. i'm losing hope and am going insane. does that make any sense?

I learned a lot

I've been watching Dr. Gregory House for four days straight, and i guess i picked up some helpful pointers from the miserable doctor.

Change is not always everything, people change and it's inevitable but everyone around him should learn to adjust and appreciate, because obviously it's their part of the job and do it wrong everything becomes a mess.

Not everyone can care. You can always work well and do good to anyone but you can always do it without caring. But be careful some people might call you an ass or worst might try to kill you if given a chance.

Appreciate those people who cares about your f***ing life, do it now while they're still here. No one really knows until what year they'll be living so if you really want them to know exactly how you feel let them know now, regrets are always at the end.

And finally, consider accepting the truth, at least to yourself. You may always lie things about who you really are, or about the things you feel, and it could make you grumpy, unwanted and miserable. Accepting who you really are can make you better, realizing your fears can make you tougher and stronger. There's really nothing wrong in acceptance, but it does require guts and belief to live with the truth. (just don't reveal who you really are to a person who's already dead, it could help, but only for a minute, find a friend, a living one).

House is such an ass, he cares about nothing but knows how to love.

I just wish I can still be braver over the following months, I'm a coward, and i need all the strength I could get in order to survive the real world. No more professors to assist and no more books to blame. But i still have my friends and loved ones though, so I can keep up with anyone if I work hard.

I have God to help me and my belief to endure it all.

p.s. another reason why I love House, it's because of Olivia Wilde, number 13 in season 4. She's one hot bitch.

I learned a lot

una siya, ano laban ko?

humupa na siguro ang emosyon ko, pero naiinis pa rin ako at nagseselos.


bakit ganun na lang siya kataranta pag siya yung pinaguusapan, pakiramdam ko siya talaga yung taong ninanais niya talagang makasama, at yun ang nagpapalungkot sa akin ngayon, mali ba ito? ang magalit ako at maiyak dahil ang kasintahan ko ay tuwang-tuwa nang makita niya ang babaeng pinapangarap niya? hindi naman siguro, kasi nasaktan talaga ako sa sinabi niya. sa mga sinabi niya.


parang bigla ako nawala sa buhay niya, parang nabura ako ng tuluyan, at hindi ko matanto kung gaano yun kasakit, kahit na sino siguro ganoon ang masasabi.


nabanggit ko na sa iyo ang tungkol doon di ba? sinabi ko na sa iyo na dalawa sila na talagang pinagseselosan ko at isa siya doon, dahil alam kong gustong-gusto mo siya at wala akong magawa tungkol doon. matagal na siya sa buhay mo, samantalang ako kailan lang, ano nga naman ang laban ko...

tae.

she's perfect and i'm the, "since-di-kayo-pwede-kaya-ako-na-lang" girl, great!


i feel jealous.
everything you posted on that page was really good, i enjoyed reading it, your girlfriend enjoyed reading it.
sometimes i just wanna ask if i really am special to you, especially when you're in front of someone else who's as beautiful as her.


i am jealous.
curse me if i'm wrong, but i do have the right to get jealous, because from the way i read your thoughts, you're so in love with her and don't you realize how painful that is for me? f***


im just pissed, after everything you typed in, what i wanna do is run away, or maybe shout at you, just this once:


can you please act as if you have a girlfriend.


i am hurting because of what i read, because as of now, i am actually thinking that you'd rather be with her than with me, and that is just...(sigh)


it's our 9th monthsary...happy monthsary! one of my happiest moment...yes, yes, thanks to you.