hate this

my mind's playing tricks on me, and my heart's prickling in pain.


my imaginations are too real, i can see smiling faces from a distant, not because they are happy for what is happening to me, but because they've planned this way before.
they have sent you to break me once again.


im not sure if this is right, or im just exaggerating things...but im really scared.
scared that if i fall for you, you'd suddenly laugh your head off and reach for your reward. you played a game with me so you and your friends could kill time, yeah its the funniest thing to do eh?


i didn't want to love anyone in the first place, but destiny insisted? or im just stupid to think it that way. you will never fall for someone like me, this may be degrading to thyself, but isn't it true that you will never fall for me?


so here i am thinking again, am i being fair? or it is more appropriate if i just forget about you and forget about us.


i wanna live.