wala lang..just want to write down what i really feel inside..

how come that everytime i'm alone and whenever i close my eyes the image of you is the one who never disappeared...its the times we've shared that is always on my mind...it seems that it was only yesterday,that we sat side by side,talking to each other,thinking of what might happen tomorrow or the next day. but why is it that i always find myself crying whenever i think of those times when i see you happy with her,when you wear that smile i never saw when you were with me.is it really her who makes you happy and makes your day complete?,yeah,i thought it was me...and yes you need not tell it to my face, coz it shows,it really does...
thinking of the words you said to me the other day, that pierced my heart,was really unbearable..how come you never saw me as one of those special someones,whom you treasure?,how come you only think of me as a friend,that's all,you don't even care how i'll feel,whenever you spend your time thinking of her even if your hurting..haven't you realized that she isn't the only girl in this world,for God's sake!...don't go wasting your time loving a girl who don't even treat you fair...
have you ever think of me before you sleep?..have you ever dreamt of being with me?..have you ever felt the same way i do?...have you ever thought what could have happened if you chose me,rather than her?...did it ever crossed your mind that it could have been happier if you weren't hurting this time,and instead laughing with me,as we ate our lunch together,even as bestfriends?...no,i bet you haven't even tried to waste your time on such stupid things...
but i hope as you read this,a part of you would feel guilt and sad at the same time,that for the first time you felt something for me...and finally you realized,i never left you,i never even bothered to asked you if i ever touched your life or if you ever considered me a 'friend', yes, i onced swallowed my pride and wrote to you,but i guess you were too bus to write back..busy thinking of her...